That doesn’t mean there weren’t things I could have done differently.
[She shakes her head.]
The last few years, we didn’t get along at all, but... We were really close when we were younger. After he died, I started learning all these things about him - that maybe he wasn’t as bad as I thought he was.
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Yeah, well... There have been enough people I couldn't do anything for.
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... Sorry to hear that.
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My brother died three weeks before we all came here.
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How?
cw suicide
He killed himself.
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I see.
[he won't say, i'm sorry, because chances are, zoe's heard enough of that.]
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[A beat.]
I told you I didn’t pick Love because of myself, right?
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[well. this is an interesting topic to ray, for... reasons.]
It isn't your fault, though. It takes more than one person to save someone like that.
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[She shakes her head.]
The last few years, we didn’t get along at all, but... We were really close when we were younger. After he died, I started learning all these things about him - that maybe he wasn’t as bad as I thought he was.
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I found out later that he wanted to tell me, he just - felt like he couldn't. Maybe part of that was on him, but...
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I doubt it was on you.
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[It seems like that might be all she's going to say for a few moments, but then, softer:]
It means a lot.
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he just knows that he'd never want his siblings to blame themselves for not realizing.]
... Well, you're welcome, I guess.