requiemed | pc catchall for ray (selfimmolates)

Isn't it? They did it for me.

They still made their own choices. And - blaming yourself for not taking her down with you isn't fair.

I had the opportunity to.

[She wants to argue against that again, but instead:]

Why didn't you?

Because I made the strategically poor decision of trying to get away instead even though I figured Entrapta was waiting somewhere.

[After a moment:]

You wanted to live. That isn't something to be sorry for.

If I was going to die either way, it would've been better to take at least one of them down with me.

You didn't know that you were going to before you tried to escape, though, right?

Doesn't change the fact that I made a mistake.

[After a moment passes:]

Yes, it does. Trying to live isn’t a mistake.

[...

his face says he isn't convinced, but he won't say anything.]

[She can tell from his expression, so she continues with:]

Would you be as upset with anyone else for doing the same thing?

I'm not them and they're not me.

Yes, I know that. That's why I'm asking.

It's different.

That's what most people with big double standards say, you know.

Fine. Then I'd judge them too.

[...]

I was really hoping that wasn't the answer you'd come to.

Tough. It's the one you're getting.

[...]

Okay, then. I guess there is one difference.

[he doesn't say anything.]

[She only hesitates for a moment before she reaches over to where he's sitting to take one of his hands in her own.]

You've worked harder and done more for everyone than basically anyone else here. You're not allowed to forget that, okay?

[he blinks in surprise when she takes one of his hands—though again, he doesn't say anything.

it doesn't feel like it.]

[She runs her thumb over the back of his palm, simple and soothing (or so she hopes).]

I still don't think it was wrong of you, but if you're convinced you messed up... You've earned a mistake. I don't know what I would have done if you weren't here, and I'd bet I'm not the only one, Ray.

[but he's not supposed to make mistakes.]

... That sounds just like something you'd say.

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