I mean, it was. It's just that - after it happened, I learned a lot about him that I never knew while he was alive. How... kind he could be, I guess. I hadn't seen that side of him in so long, you know? But we met someone who was his friend. None of us knew he had any friends any more.
Yeah. He told us how they went to an orchard one day, and when this guy fell out of a tree and broke his arm, my brother took him to the hospital himself and waited with him there until he knew that he was going to be alright.
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Everything I remember about him is... So much angrier. I don't remember anything that caring or patient. But it made me think, like - if things had been different, could I have found that part of him again?
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It's something I've been thinking about a lot. What I want to use my wish for, if I make it through all this.
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It's hard, you know? To know whether to use it to make the past hurt less or to make the future seem a little brighter.
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... that depends, I guess. Do you think you'll be able to keep going, even with the heaviness of your past behind you?
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Everyone I've talked to keeps telling me that I'll know the right answer when the time comes, but I don't think I'm any closer to deciding.
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No one can decide but you but... if you ever want an ear to try to sound out the options, you know I'm here.
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I think I've put enough on you lately.
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... we're friends, so you can tell me anything you want, and I'll listen. Promise.
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I told you that... he's gone, obviously. But I never really told you how things were before that, right?
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Not from what I remember....
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[She looks towards the ground.]
He had a lot of, um, behavioral problems. I think that kind of took a toll. We were really, really close when we were younger, but - it changed.
[There's more to the story, of course, but she pauses for a moment to make sure he wants to hear.]
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Sorry that... sounds hard....
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[A beat.]
I mean, it was. It's just that - after it happened, I learned a lot about him that I never knew while he was alive. How... kind he could be, I guess. I hadn't seen that side of him in so long, you know? But we met someone who was his friend. None of us knew he had any friends any more.
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[senri offers up a small smile]
I'm glad - that he had at least... someone. Even just one person can make all the difference.
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Everything I remember about him is... So much angrier. I don't remember anything that caring or patient. But it made me think, like - if things had been different, could I have found that part of him again?