No way, you need to realize that you shouldn't be interested in someone who hasn't been able to be completely honest with you....
[ . . . and he shakes his head as he faces her]
You're my friend no matter what - and I don't want to make this more awkward or anything, but... I just wanna make sure you know I was serious that you'll find someone waaaaay better suited for you than me, and it'll be awesome.
I mean, it was. It's just that - after it happened, I learned a lot about him that I never knew while he was alive. How... kind he could be, I guess. I hadn't seen that side of him in so long, you know? But we met someone who was his friend. None of us knew he had any friends any more.
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done,,,,,
Z.... Zo.....
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It's fine. I know you don't, so - you don't have to say anything. It's okay.
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[oh my god what does he do with this,,]
I....
You know it's -
With someone that might be from a different place than me.... I can't....
[wheezing internally]
But - oh my god Zo, you need better taste in men.
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[It hurts, but that's hardly his fault. It's not like she didn't already realize, anyways.
But, more importantly—]
You also need to have more confidence in yourself.
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[ . . . and he shakes his head as he faces her]
You're my friend no matter what - and I don't want to make this more awkward or anything, but... I just wanna make sure you know I was serious that you'll find someone waaaaay better suited for you than me, and it'll be awesome.
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Let's talk about something else, okay? Sorry, it's like you said - I don't want to make this more awkward than it already is.
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[and that's why he moves on easily]
Wanna go eat some parfaits? I think you've earned it. I'm trying out a new recipe for Bambi - so I hope you like when things are kinda sweet.
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I will happily be your guinea pig.
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It'll be a teaser for the parfaits we'll eat when you come visit me in Tokyo!
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[It's more curious than anything else.]
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Who knows? There's a lot of people here that I'm not... really ready to say goodbye to.
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It's something I've been thinking about a lot. What I want to use my wish for, if I make it through all this.
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It's hard, you know? To know whether to use it to make the past hurt less or to make the future seem a little brighter.
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... that depends, I guess. Do you think you'll be able to keep going, even with the heaviness of your past behind you?
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Everyone I've talked to keeps telling me that I'll know the right answer when the time comes, but I don't think I'm any closer to deciding.
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No one can decide but you but... if you ever want an ear to try to sound out the options, you know I'm here.
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I think I've put enough on you lately.
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... we're friends, so you can tell me anything you want, and I'll listen. Promise.
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I told you that... he's gone, obviously. But I never really told you how things were before that, right?
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Not from what I remember....
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[She looks towards the ground.]
He had a lot of, um, behavioral problems. I think that kind of took a toll. We were really, really close when we were younger, but - it changed.
[There's more to the story, of course, but she pauses for a moment to make sure he wants to hear.]
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Sorry that... sounds hard....
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[A beat.]
I mean, it was. It's just that - after it happened, I learned a lot about him that I never knew while he was alive. How... kind he could be, I guess. I hadn't seen that side of him in so long, you know? But we met someone who was his friend. None of us knew he had any friends any more.
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[senri offers up a small smile]
I'm glad - that he had at least... someone. Even just one person can make all the difference.
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