[There's a pause as she tries to hold herself together, but - it doesn't quite work. She's talked to people about this before, but not anyone who she truly thought would understand the weight of it.
Even as she swallows and blinks to try and stop herself, it's almost like she's cracking apart. Her words are thick with tears; her face is a little bit of a mess, suddenly.]
What if, what if I bring him back and he h-hates me for it?
[ Yu breathes out. He doesn't gather her into his arms, exactly; but he pulls her a little closer, and he'll press his face into her hair, every hiccup of her tears stabbing at his heart.
This wonderful person shouldn't have to suffer like this, he thinks. ]
Zoe.
[ His voice feels rough in his throat.
What do you say to this? To this kind of loss? His friends died. But taking your own life...
Yu is quiet again for a long moment just holding her close, resting his cheek on her hair and staring at the water. ]
[If there's a hesitation before she answers his question, it's only because she's trying to force her voice to sound normal again. It doesn't work by any stretch of the imagination. She stares down at the ground, hard, sorrow and fear and anger all writhing around in her chest.]
[ God. He can't help it. He lets a breath go, winded like she just punched him right in the chest.
He doesn't say anything right away. He just, god, he hugs her tighter and wishes the world were fair. ]
... I guess the first thing I would say is that you'd be doing what you did to help. To set things right. And there's nothing wrong with that. The second is...
[ A pause. ]
I actually have a suggestion, but I'm not sure if that's the kind of thing you want to hear right now.
[She rubs a few tear tracks off her cheeks, sniffing, before she just nods. There isn't any verbal agreement, she doesn't trust her voice, but it's clear from her expression that she wants him to go on.]
[There's a pause, while she rubs some of the remaining tears off her face. They're slowing up little by little, especially when she glances his way with a new kind of realization.
It's still watery (not to mention how congested she sounds), but:]
[It takes her a while to connect that 'we' to the implied meaning, but when she realizes... The look on her face speaks for itself. She turns towards him for the first time in minutes to make eye contact, horrified and shocked.]
I was shocked when I heard Uchiha-san's reason for going after Misaki-san, all those weeks ago. And then it seemed... there might be a few of us here like that, after all.
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cw suicide, just in case
[There's a pause as she tries to hold herself together, but - it doesn't quite work. She's talked to people about this before, but not anyone who she truly thought would understand the weight of it.
Even as she swallows and blinks to try and stop herself, it's almost like she's cracking apart. Her words are thick with tears; her face is a little bit of a mess, suddenly.]
What if, what if I bring him back and he h-hates me for it?
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This wonderful person shouldn't have to suffer like this, he thinks. ]
Zoe.
[ His voice feels rough in his throat.
What do you say to this? To this kind of loss? His friends died. But taking your own life...
Yu is quiet again for a long moment just holding her close, resting his cheek on her hair and staring at the water. ]
Can I ask who he is?
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My... My brother.
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He doesn't say anything right away. He just, god, he hugs her tighter and wishes the world were fair. ]
... I guess the first thing I would say is that you'd be doing what you did to help. To set things right. And there's nothing wrong with that. The second is...
[ A pause. ]
I actually have a suggestion, but I'm not sure if that's the kind of thing you want to hear right now.
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But her fear, her pain over thinking her brother might hate her for forcing his hand against a choice he already made--
It's all he can think of, even if it means she might not get him back. ]
What if you wished for the power to give him a choice to return? Wherever he is now... I'm certain the gods could reach him.
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It's still watery (not to mention how congested she sounds), but:]
Do you think they'd let me?
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[ He sounds certain. ]
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I'll have to think about it. Sorry, I'm...
[A mess. Anyways... That's enough about her, she decides.]
Can I ask who yours were...?
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[ firm, and he gives her a brief squeeze. ]
... my friends, you mean?
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Yeah.
[The 'only if you want to' is unspoken, but present nonetheless.]
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Yosuke, Chie, Yukiko... Teddie, Kanji, Naoto... and Rise, of course.
[ A faint smile, fond and nostalgic. ]
They used to tell me I'd helped them change... but really, I was the one who was changed, in the end.
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And they all...?
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[ ... he shakes his head. ]
We didn't win.
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...What?
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I was shocked when I heard Uchiha-san's reason for going after Misaki-san, all those weeks ago. And then it seemed... there might be a few of us here like that, after all.
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[It's panicked, even as she tries not to let the sheer force of her fear seep through.]
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[ He hears the panic and he shuts his eyes briefly before he ducks his head so he can look at her better. ]
... it'll be alright.
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How can you know that?
can't believe i have to shove you into this furnace.
i crawl out of the furnace and embrace you, setting us both ablaze
Okay. I trust you.