pc catchall for senri (usogi)

[requiemed]

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[usogi]

Yeah, they're like - weird gummies? They're really good at making you feel better....

[he offers up a smile]

Cookies, I think. I want to make some for Passhi. She sent me a letter on Friday and I want to write her a new one too.

[requiemed]

Cool. I'm glad he gave you some.

[She tilts her head.]

What did the letter say?

[usogi]

Here....

[he'll hand over his phone to her while he gathers ingredients! he's still moving slowly so as to not aggravate any injuries. he took a photo of the letter to keep on his phone.

but the letter will say:

Hi, Senny!

Don't be jealous, okay? It's just that he serenaded me, and how could I not make a super special appearance for something like that? It was suuuuper tiring, though, so it's not something I want to make a habit out of. Even for a god, moving between the realms of living and the dead is a little out of the ordinary, and I have a lot of work I need to conserve my energy for over on this end of things.

Hey, people over here have been asking me the same questions. I think there's been some kind of misunderstanding? I feel like everybody thinks I'm some kind of creep...but I only gave an honest answer to a question that everyone else asked me. :(

It's like I said before, I decided when they first had the idea to appoint a leader that I didn't want to play because I don't want to lead. I'm more of a helper than a trail blazer. I don't have any kind of vision and I'm not good at directing other people. Is that really so suspicious? Not everybody wants to have that kind of responsibility, right? Isn't that just normal...? ]

[requiemed]

[She reads it over a few times before she hands the phone back to Senri, frowning slightly.]

What do you think of her?

[usogi]

I don't know yet. I'm not sure if I've ever really known - I think she's super sweet and fun to talk to, and that's fine. I'll keep talking to her because I like the conversation.

[ . . . . ]

I think I'm gonna treat it like Dizzy - I'll have faith in her until I can't anymore. But getting to know her isn't bad.

It's just hard to make judgments about someone when you're not familiar with them, you know?

[requiemed]

...You shouldn't have faith in Disorder.

[She nods, though.]

It can be tough. But - I think you have good judgment.

[usogi]

[he blinks]

Not in Dizzy? Why?

[requiemed]

She's lied to me before about something pretty serious.

[usogi]

Huh?

[he looks appropriately shocked]

About what?

[requiemed]

[She pauses.]

You remember back when Chuuya was still alive, when he said that he defected from her and she threw a fit because of it?

[usogi]

[senri nods...]

Yeah?

[requiemed]

Let's just say I got a way more flattering version of events from her than I did from him, and... I'm pretty sure he was telling the truth.

[usogi]

[ . . . and he frowns.]

I mean... I heard both ends too....

And she told me what her feud with Cheri was about...

And Cheri even told me that they made up?

... I'm not saying that Dizzy's perfect, and I'm not even saying that you should trust her if you don't want to but.... I think she's spent a long time being distrusted just because Disorder doesn't sound like a pretty god title.

I'm worried about her.

[requiemed]

I don't think it's an issue of two different sides, here. I think the issue is that she threatened someone if they defected and then tried to make herself seem like the victim when I asked her about it.

[She shakes her head, though.]

I'm not trying to get you to change your mind, either. Just - be careful, I guess.

[usogi]

No.... I agree with you.

[and he just sighs]

I already told her - I'm going to trust her, and other people will do the hardship of distrusting her for me. I'm going to try to get people to give her a chance, because I think she deserves one.

But it can't just be me - she has to put in the effort too.

I guess she just hasn't gotten a lot of chance for that...

[requiemed]

[After a few moments:]

You're a really good person, you know that?

[usogi]

[senri outright laughs at that]

No way.

.... I'm a pretty average person - who's just... tired of seeing people get hurt, I guess.

[requiemed]

I'm not going to take an agree to disagree on this one. Sorry.

[usogi]

[jeeze.... he offers her a soft smile]

... thanks Zo.

You're heading back to Love after this week, right?

[requiemed]

[She nods.]

I'm kind of worried about some of the gods who don't have as many followers, but... I promised Love.

[usogi]

... yeah, I don't blame you.

[and he laughs a little weakly]

But if... you meet anyone who gets hit by Advancement Opportunity and needs a place to go - Beauty's down to one follower. Dizzy too. I'm worried about Cheri...

I haven't decided where i'm gonna go yet but... once I have more information I'll figure it out.

[requiemed]

[After a moment, mildly surprised:]

...You know, it's okay to be a little selfish and go to Beauty.

[usogi]

.... it's complicated.

[he offers up a weak smile]

He really likes the last follower he has left.

I keep thinking about... some kind of horror situation.... like where we all make mistakes, and end up voting for Beauty and then he has to choose between them and me -

I... I don't want to put him in that situation. Ever.

[requiemed]

But there's a chance the same situation could happen if you move to another god who doesn't have many followers, right?

[It's clear from the slight distress in her voice that it's not a possibility she's put much thought into before now.]

[usogi]

[ . . . ]

I trust the other person on Cheri's team right now more than I do the one on Beauty's team.